Okay so what do you do when, no matter how much you try, you keep feeling beaten down? Then what? what's the next step? I mean seriously, there is only so much you can do before you want to snap. Before you do snap. I feel like a part of "Behind these hazel eyes", by Kelly Clarkson.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside,
But you won't get to see the tears I cried,
Behind these hazel eyes.

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewed together
But so broken up inside

I'm tired of fighting, tired of pretending. I just feel trapped. I'm ready to fly. I'm going crazy. There's no way out.